viernes, 28 de diciembre de 2012
Every!
Every time, everywhere, every every, I need to call the attention of everyone, it's like I wanted to hide what I'm really thinking, in fact, it's truth. I can't stop speaking because if I do I start to think, and it's not something that I really enjoy, is more like...disgusting! I know it sounds weird but it's the very real truth. It is not truth that I don't enjoy think about what to do, but it's horrible to think what I will do, because I'm not a person who likes to wait, I mean, who does? I really don't care, whatever, but, sometimes thinking about what will happen is a bit frustrating. More if you are not comfortable with yourself like I am, and it's something I have never spoken with anybody, I always try to imitate the people I adore, like actors or even characters. Like I try to dress like them, act like them, have the same problems that them. The worst shit is that I can do it. And I do. And it feels good, just for a moment, then everything you create disappears when someone tells you "you are not like (and the character)" and all of your world starts to fall apart and you feel like there is no one inside you, and that you are nothing. And that's what happens to someone who is not right with himself ! Shit, even writing about that drive me crazy and make me remember those times when I was a little wallflower.
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