Heartbreaker

Hey,
Six months ago, I met someone. In the past months I started to talk to him more often. We started with friendship. We used to talk about music, school, partys. And I started to realize that I really like him. I started to talk a little bit weird with him. I was like in love. I really wanted him to realize that I liked him, but it didn't work because he told me that he didn't like guys, that he was straight and things like that. The time passed. And we still being friends. After a month or two a friend in common with him told me that he always talked about me, about what we had spoken. She told me he was confused, and that he had told me all that things because he didn't want to hurt me, like he always do with every girl he goes out. I'm not a girl, I would like to add. Well, I was online and a I had a message from him, it said, I really would like a kiss with you. I said, what? I didn't answer him, until he was online. I asked him about that message. He ask me about what I really felt for him. I told him 'I want you'. And his answer was 'So do I. But as friends'. That was the worst thing someone ever told me. I was like broken, but a message showed up. It said 'if the kiss happens, it's the only thing' and I was very happy until my friend told me he had asked me the kiss like a favor. She has to help him to conquest a girl. At one moment I felt sick I wanted to vomit. But then I spoke to him and I asked him, he said that it was true. Then I asked him if he really wanted or if he was doing that as a 'favor'. And he answer me, both. Then we never talked to each other again. Never mind, I'm gonna be alright.

New Thought

Hey, 
Today I was on the net, watching videos. And suddenly appear a video, it's called "it gets better". I saw it, and it was really beautiful. It talks about gay people who wants to kill themselves. There are famous people who speaks about it. And they say that everything always get better, there's no reason to kill yourself, and neither to hurt yourself. Even if there still being people in the world with their close minds, who tells you that is wrong being like you are. You don't have to listen to them, because they're crazy, they don't want to understand that you don't decide how you are. You just born this way, and I know that because I am gay, and there's always people who tells you that is wrong, and take phrases from the bible to tell you that god doesn't want gay people. Or tells you that nature has done the human body in a way that only man-women fits. We have to know that there's always someone who understand you, someone who doesn't reject you for who you are. They accept you. They contain you as good friends. And that's all that matters